I clearly don't take this blogging thing too seriously. I had intentions of blogging daily or almost daily and creating things and posting about them... Now it has been HOW LONG? since I posted anything at all.
Here's a little update. I quit my job of 14+ years and have started at a new place at a new pace. Weird is the word for me right now. Everything is just so weird. I knew it would be a change and it certainly is. I'm not freaked out, thanks to God's good grace, and I am trying to pace myself. Part of the reason I left the old job was the pace of things. I was being pulled apart and at the same time was turning into a big stress ball. Not a good combination, I assure you! I hated hearing the phone ring because it was almost inevitably my boss calling to harangue me about some minor point on some minor report that only she was ever going to really read. I could understand her position and I didn't envy it, but it still made my life a little more miserable. So I hunted around and found a job at a similarly-sized company that is NOT owned by a hugemongous corporation. Much better atmosphere. Except.
I'm having trouble adjusting. Or more to the point, I'm having trouble allowing myself time to get adjusted. Things are just slower here. I'm no longer being pulled in four directions with endless amounts of tasks that take more than a regular work week to make a sizable dent. I wanted a slower pace but now that I've got, I find it's hard to adjust. I have had a certain level of anxiety built into my workday from the last few years that is just going to take a while to wear off. I feel like a pound puppy. I'm NOT suggesting I was abused at my last job, but I'm just a little worse for wear, like those dogs who've been in cages, feeding off one-another's anxiety for just long enough that they are anxious themselves. I'd like to somehow speed up the process of relaxing into this new job. Any suggestions??? How does one force themselves to relax? Without making a mess of the new job?
