Low level anxiety

I stayed home from work today.  Something hit my sinuses late last week and the allergy meds hadn't really caught up until today.  The last two nights I slept very badly.  Today I tried to get a few things done, but mostly napped and then watched too much about the tornado in OK.  My son is training to become, most likely, a first responder.  Freaks me out a little some days because he is, you know, my little boy.  18, 6'3" but still my little baby.  A U.S. military trained soldier, but my kid.  The guy I had nightmares about leaving at daycare.  The bundle of joy that brought out my tiger when a bee first buzzed near him.  The only person who showed me what real love is.  Choosing a career that puts him in harm's way in order to save lives.

Tomorrow (and tomorrow and...)

Just when I thought I was getting a little ahead of anxiety, a night like this comes along and bites me you-know-where.  I got out of work at a decent hour and went to the grocery store on the way home to get some things to make into dessert for the regular Thursday night dinner.  Got home and took the dog for a semi-long walk in the warm spring evening.  Ate dinner and then felt ookie, so I laid down and took a twenty-minute nap.  Woke up when the phone rang and felt funny.  Ten-thirty now and I'm filled with anxiety about tomorrow.  They are letting a few people go.  I'm not privy to anything tangible, but they've been hinting about this for months and the clues are pretty strong that my work environment is going to change again tomorrow.  I've lived through this sort of thing before, but I have no confidence in this new management team and so my anxiety level is through the roof.  No good reason, really, just the general anxiety that comes from not knowing the future. And my usual sin of not trusting the Lord of the Universe.
Well, that is a little harsh.  I've got a lot of involuntary change in my life and it is really difficult to deal with it all, at the same time, as perfectly as I expect myself to.  The changes at work are deeper than just some co-workers being fired.  My job will be to make sure things run just as smoothly with three people as it did with five.  HAH!!!